My Past, Present and Future challenge

Judy EllenStarred Page By Judy Ellen, 11th Nov 2015 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/3xmgmla3/
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In this short article I write about how I was a prisoner to other people’s wants and needs. I am finally free but it took years for me to learn to break away and to be all that I was created to be after years of abuse and people pleasing.

The Past

I am accepting this Past, Present and Future challenge that Carol Roach wrote about in her article! Below is the link to Carol's article

http://writing.wikinut.com/Writing-About-the-Past%2C-Present%2C-and-Future/1-1-xkav/

The only person who was not afraid of my dad and who believed in me was my Grandmother!

I am sure that my mom believed in me but she was afraid to voice her opinion due to the dictatorial marriage she found herself in.

If I could go back to the past there are two things that I would do!

The First Thing that I would do: I would have tried to find a way to take voice lessons to boost my self confidence and not let my abusive overbearing Dad keep me from doing more with my life!

Dad said that singing was nothing more than a “Pipe Dream” and forced me to give up on my dream.

Since he said “No” to doing something with my musical talent I then asked if I could work my way through college which would have made all the difference in the world to me! Since he said “NO” to those two choices I then asked if I could go to Nursing school. Again my dream was shut down.

The only option I was allowed to pursue was secretarial work or marriage. After high school graduation I applied for several secretarial jobs but they only wanted to hire someone who had years of experience.

I ended up working as a waitress and then getting married young to get away from a dictatorial father and move closer to my sister.

The Second thing that I would do: I should have left home at 18 and never dated anyone at all until I graduated from nursing school.

Due to the fact that I was very insecure and had no self confidence I ended up in abusive relationships.

Below is the link to the song I wrote about my grandmother:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glxXtrDnHvg&feature=youtu.be

The Present:

I am trying to learn new things every day and be the best person I can be! I am determined to take better care of my health so that I can use my talents to help others and serve the Lord in any way possible to make my life count for something.

I am trying not to look back on the dark senseless waste of my past and to think ahead while doing whatever I can to help others on their journey in this life.

I vow to use what I have overcome and learned from the past to enhance the life of others and hopefully keep them from making the same mistakes!

The Future where the sky is the limit!

I am going to explore new things and get out of my comfort zone as I keep on using my abilities to help others. I am going to stop obsessing over my children and help other people who are lonely and need a helping hand or a listening ear.

I am going to write more songs and redo many of those that I already have on Youtube to make them better. I am not going to let anyone or anything keep me from my goals.

In conclusion: We must learn to forgive ourselves for the mistakes we think we made in the past because it is only after having lived through the past that we learned to do things differently.

When we were young we did not have the information, maturity or knowledge that we have today after years of life’s hard knocks. So therefore don’t hold on to all that guilt from past mistakes and learn to forgive yourself for the past!

Forgive yourself so that you can move on to a better life for you and your loved ones! In fact those hard knocks are what made you into the wise and wonderful person you are today!

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Forgiving The Past, Forgiving Yourself, Lifes Regrets, Past, Present And Future Challenge, Self Improvement

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author avatar Judy Ellen
I love writing poetry, songs articles on Christianity, health, anything pertaining to families! I love writing reviews on my favorite TV programs such as Discovery, Animal planet and Dr. Phil.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
11th Nov 2015 (#)

We all carry baggage from our past and how we respond to them matters during our further journey.

I try not to forget we come alone and leave alone too. We go through rough patches and I take a view those who were unjust towards me did not really mean to, but circumstances forced them to sort of unload their rubbish on me. At the same time, that helped me to understand that life is not what I expect it to be though I still get carried away by altruism!

I am sure the path ahead will prove more rewarding to you Judy. Though I couldn't watch the video through the link, I was able to from youtube - siva

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
11th Nov 2015 (#)

dear Judy ...
Bless you for sharing your heart with us here .
I too have known abuse and rejection , but now that I am a Born Again Christian the Lord has helped me to completely forgive all who have hurt me , and I too have received His forgiveness and healing and deliverance from my past .
Even the memories hold no sting for me now .
May you experience the same total freedom and be able to go forward with a happy , thankful heart for all the goodness of the Lord in your life .
God bless you with His love and peace
Stella ><

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author avatar Judy Ellen
14th Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you so much Stella for saying just what I desperately needed to hear or read! I do have trouble with sad memories from the past especially when I am trying to sleep at night and that is when I try to remember that God was with me during those times! I know that at the end of this journey and when I am with the Lord I will understand it all! I owe everything to Him!

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
11th Nov 2015 (#)

And ps ....Keep on singing your beautiful songs for Him , my friend ....
More blessings
Stella ><

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author avatar Judy Ellen
14th Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you dear sister in the Lord for your comment and for being such a huge blessing and inspiration to us all!! God Bless!!

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author avatar Retired
11th Nov 2015 (#)

Thought provoking post. Thanks Judy.

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author avatar Judy Ellen
14th Nov 2015 (#)

I am so glad that my post was thought provoking! God Bless!

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author avatar Carol Roach
12th Nov 2015 (#)

thank you for taken on the challenge, you can do it I believe in you hon!

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author avatar Judy Ellen
14th Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you so much Carol for believing in me! You have been a true inspiration to me! I think of you as my dear sister from across the ocean!! I hope someday we could actually meet! God Bless!

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author avatar Md Rezaul Karim
13th Nov 2015 (#)

Interesting post to read.. different people different day and night..
https://youtu.be/q-ULL2UGwwc

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author avatar Judy Ellen
14th Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you Md Rezaul Karim for your generous and uplifting comment!!

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author avatar vellur
14th Nov 2015 (#)

Inspiring and positive, thank you for sharing your journey with us.

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author avatar Judy Ellen
14th Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you for your comment and kind words!

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