For The Sake of my Children

Ellen By Ellen, 8th May 2013 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/_8ptftmg/
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This is a true adoption story from our biological mother told to her biological daughter. All names have been changed to protect the innocent. No organization, work places, cities, towns or states are mentioned.

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Our mother Doris sat alone in her apartment, as the sun streamed in through the window, while sitting in her chair looking out onto the street below. It felt strange to be sitting down in the middle of the day. Usually she was up chasing after her children, fighting with her husband Fred, cleaning their old farmhouse, while listening to the continuing accusations of being a slut and a poor housekeeper. There were so many memories swimming around in her mind, that all she could do now was to just sit and cry quietly. Cry for the many long years of abuse, cry for the seven children she gave up, and cry for the two daughters she wondered if she would ever see again. There was so much anguish built up inside, that all she could do for now was to remember and cry.

The next day Doris walked to work at the nursing home just a short distance from her apartment, to work as a nurse aid on the evening shift. Only her Aunt Abbey knew what had happened in the last few weeks, but nobody knew the whole story, not even Doris, there was just too much to try and remember it all. Doris arrived to work early and started to help with whoever needed help. She worked long hard hours, because it helped her to keep her mind off of what had happened, but she finally had to leave every evening and head back to her apartment, to sit and remember all the events of the abuse to her and her children of the past years. Her husband Fred was gone, but she did not know where, nor did she really care. Her five older children were safe and being cared for, only she and her older children had no idea where the two youngest daughters had been placed. She prayed that they too were being taken care of as her older children were.

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It was the same thing every night as she sat alone in her apartment eating her supper, when she would remember what had happened to her and her children. She remembered the years she and her four sisters in their younger years would sing together while they worked around their home. How she had come from a pleasant childhood only to see her life turned up-side-down by not listening to the advice of others, and having a stubborn streak, and not admitting that she was making a big mistake in marrying Fred. She wanted to show everybody that she knew what she was doing, and that the choices she was making were the right ones.
Crying quietly she remembered that cold December day many years ago when she and Fred had married. She remembered how she and Fred had to borrow wedding rings from her sister and her husband. She remembered how Fred had thrown the wedding rings back to her sister without even a thank you. She remembered wondering where they would live without any money or job, and her being pregnant with their first child, until Fred found an old farmhouse for them to live in, as he worked down the road for another farmer. She could still see herself in her mind cleaning the old farmhouse up and putting the tin cans over the rat holes. She remembered the day one rat had found its way out of a hole and into baby Glen’s crib. She could still see in her mind how Fred had fought the rat and killed it leaving it lay on the bedroom floor. Later she remembered all the accusations of being accused of leaving a can off of one of the rat holes, and felt the blows on her body. Sometimes the memories would become so blurred and confusing to her that she felt she would go completely crazy. She had done her best to keep her home clean, her children safe, but it always seemed that no matter how hard she tried, she just could not seem to get ahead. She remembered the night Fred brought in the squealing pig. The children were ready for bed, and she sent them to the one bedroom and the one big bed they all shared. She remembered Fred taking a knife and slitting the pig open and letting the intestines and blood fall

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to the clean floor. She remembered Fred ordering her to cook the pig for him, but she had refused feeling that the pig could possibly be diseased. She remembered Fred leaving the mess for her to clean up as he went into town for drinks and women. She remembers waking up the next morning to find flour poured on the stove and floor with all the burners to the stove turned on. He just laughed as she turned the burners off and cleaned up yet another mess.
Doris remembered when she had to deliver her fourth son three months early. The weather was so cold and he weighed less than three pounds when he was born. She remembered Fred telling her to just get rid of him and throw him out into the snow. Doris loved all of her children and remembered spending many nights and days keeping Little Fred alive. She remembered when they had left the hospital they had been told that the baby should stay, but Fred would not hear of it, since they did not have healthcare insurance and left against hospital advice.
Finally crawling into bed she cried herself to sleep waking again to get ready for work. It was the same old routine every day, get up, eat breakfast, dress for work, take her lunch, and work long hard hours and walk back to the apartment every evening, to sit and remember.
Only this night was to be different for as she entered the apartment building, standing in front of her was her husband Fred. Despite all they had been through she was surprised that she still had feelings for him, and was hoping that this time he had finally changed his ways. Allowing him inside her apartment, they had a meal together and he stayed the night. After he left, never to come back again, she found herself pregnant with her last child and gave birth to him. He was the only child out of 8 children that she raised by herself and he was the only child she named by herself.

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Things were starting to improve for Doris, but she could not escape the memories of the abuse, accusations, and having to give up her children, and remembering the accusations over and over again in her mind that she had to put up with for so many years.
Watching her youngest child learn and grow she remembered what her older children had to go through. Her older children had been deprived of any type of childhood. The fond childhood memories for her older children were few and far between. Doris remembered the many times her older boys Glen and Garrick had been thrown into the pig pens and had to scramble frantically to get away from the huge sows and boars. Only to be met by their father who would beat them for not staying inside the pig pen. As they came running to Doris, she would put her arms around their dirty, thin beaten bodies, as they cried against her clean apron, as their father stood by laughing. She remembered the day when her oldest daughter Sally was accused of being a slut at the tender age of 6 years and beaten by her father, and how Doris took her daughter into her arms to comfort her, than heard the terrible screams from inside the old farmhouse from her other daughter Josephine only a year old. Doris remembers as she and Sally rushed into the old farmhouse to find Fred burning Josephine’s hand with his cigarette. Taking her two daughters into her arms she comforted them the best that she could while applying what medication she could find to the top of Josephine’s hand.
Doris remembered the day her Aunt Abbey had come out to the old farmhouse to wait with her and her children for the police to come and pick them all up and all that had led up to that day. Fred had been watching from the barn as he saw his three daughters being put into one of the police cars. He watched as his four sons were put into another police car. Doris and Aunt Abbey climbed into Aunt Abbey’s car and the third police car kept an eye out for Fred knowing that he could possibly cause problems. Everything went smoothly as they all drove into town to the two

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orphanages. The boys were settled into their new home and were given medical attention, a place to sleep and plenty of food and an education. The third brother Perry was happy that he finally had his own bed to sleep in and did not have to share a bed with his siblings. Sally was taken to the girl’s home and also given medical attention, a place to sleep, plenty of food and an education.
After working at the nursing home for a while Doris was finally allowed to visit the two homes where her sons and daughter lived at. Doris and her children no longer had to fear of being beaten or starved or not having enough clothes or shoes to wear, and they could now receive medical care and their own beds to sleep in. Only Doris and her older children still had no idea where the two youngest girls were living. Doris finally told her youngest child Dennis that he had four older brothers and three older sisters and that he was not an only child as he had thought for so many years. It took Dennis awhile to come to terms with this news, but finally after some talking and listening he was able to accept the news of having siblings.
Doris remembered each time she went into the hospital to have one of her children, and how after each birth Fred would stand over her hospital bed shouting at her and wanting to know who the father was. No matter how many times she tried to convince him that he was the father of all of their children, he would not believe her. He was convinced that if each child did not look exactly like him, that he was not the father of that child. Despite the fact that he did not claim to be the father, he still insisted upon naming each child. Doris had no say as to what names he picked out. Fred was also convinced that Doris found the time from taking care of seven children, living and working on an isolated farm, and not knowing how to drive, that she had the time for one affair after another.

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Doris remembered how bad the February weather had been when she had been taken to the hospital to deliver Selena. She remembered telling Fred to take the children to two of her sister’s homes, since they both lived near the hospital. Later she found out from her sister and husband that Fred had dropped off the older children at one sister’s home, but still had the two younger children aged 3 and 1 1/2 in the back seat of the car, when he decided to stop at a nearby bar, while leaving the children in the back seat freezing and scared. As people went into the bar they saw the two small children in the back seat and knew who they belonged to. Doris was told that one of the men made Fred go out and take care of his children. A very angry Fred finally dropped them off at one of Doris sister’s homes. Both children were nearly frozen and a doctor had to be called out in the middle of the cold wintry night. Josephine nearly died that night from pneumonia, but managed to pull through after being given a shot and some medication. The next morning Doris remembered Fred picking her up at the hospital to bring her and their new baby daughter Selena home. They picked up the children and her sister gave the children bags of clothes and toys which made Fred angry, and he was told that if he took care of his family the way he should, they would not have to have handouts.
Doris watched as Dennis slept in his bed and Doris continued to sit in her chair by the window looking out at the traffic on the street below and continued to remember.
Doris remembered the time when she cared for four runt calves and had been promised the pay of $16.00 only to find out later that Fred and his boss had cheated her out of the money. She had been told by Fred and his boss that women like Doris did not have the brains to know how to handle that much money. Doris had planned in her head how she would spend the $16.00. She wanted to buy new shoes for her children, new clothes, some food, but she could do nothing

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since Fred used it for drinking at the bars in the nearby town, and used part of the money to pay for prostitutes.
She remembered the time Fred’s mother Amy had come to live with them from a nursing home from another state. She had been dropped off in their old farmhouse by a man who yelled loudly, “Here she is!” and without another word left the old farmhouse and drove away. Doris remembers how Amy had been so scared when she had first arrived and how close Doris and her mother-in-law had become. She remembered the day when she and Amy had been sitting on the front porch as they finished peeling the potatoes and decided to wash and dry the bags the potatoes had come in to use for seat covers in the old model-T car. While she and Amy worked and talked together they did not notice Fred as he put a small calf inside the car and closed the car door. The calf began to moo and do its business inside the car and was finally let out of the car by Doris and Amy when they finally heard the poor calf mooing. The smell from the car was horrible. Doris grabbed the garden hose and began to hose the car out. With the smell in the car there was no way anybody could ride in the car. She remembered Fred standing a short distance away from her laughing at what he had done. Finally Doris had had enough and turned the cold water hose on Fred, then turned the water hose back onto the car. Doris then told Fred that if she could, she would beat Fred within an inch of his life, as he had done to her, so many times, dig a hole and bury Fred in it, dig him back up, beat him again and bury him one more time. Amy watched the whole scene from the porch and kept her hand over her mouth to keep from laughing out loud.

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As the months passed by, Amy became too sick for Doris to continue taking care of her and had to go back to the nursing from where she had come. Doris remembered how sad she was hearing about the death of Amy at the age of 56, and how Amy had also been beaten by Fred’s father every day within an inch of her life. She remembered too how Fred had no remorse when learning about his mother’s death. Fred had always told Doris that women were the scum of the earth and were only used for one purpose and once that purpose was done, they were of no use.
She remembered the Sunday morning Fred had packed the whole family up in the old car and drove through the country to an old fashioned church. It was to be the first and last time that the family would attend church together. She remembered that church service had already started, and there was no place to sit except towards the front. She had managed to get the older children seated, while the younger children were held on laps by the older children or herself. She remembered how at the end of the church service Fred had gone up in front of the congregation to receive Christ while crying and asking for forgiveness. Doris and the children sat looking at each other wondering what was going on, and if he truly meant what he was saying. She remembered the drive back home, and how Fred talked about getting rid of Doris and the children. His first child he wanted to get rid of was Josephine. Doris remembered as Fred opened up the car door and threw Josephine out onto the country road, and prepared to drive away leaving her there. Doris had no idea how she managed to get out of the car and pick up the crying and scared Josephine, while at the same time she and the older children fought Fred with every ounce of strength that they had. To this day she has no idea how she managed to get the children and herself back into the car and continue on home. Fred laughed at how he had fooled the congregation and his family, and as soon as he could he would be rid of his wife and children

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and nobody would be the wiser. He claimed to know ways of making people disappear, and it was then that Doris knew she had to do something to save her children and herself.
Doris remembered the day when Fred was gone to work in the fields, the older children were gone to school and the younger ones were at home playing and Doris had food ready for the upcoming meals. She managed to find paper, pen, envelope and one stamp and she knew who she needed to write to. Her Aunt Abbey had helped her out so much and she was the one Doris had written to and managed to get the letter mailed before Fred came in from the fields. Doris remembered waiting and waiting and instead of receiving a letter from her Aunt Abbey, she showed up at the farm. Waiting for the older children to arrive home from school, she remembered telling them to watch the younger children, and to play inside and to keep away from their father and that she would be back as soon as she could.
Doris remembered the drive into town to the courthouse and meeting a Mrs. Smith who worked at the courthouse, and remembered how nice and polite the lady had been, and how she had listened to everything that Doris told her. The only thing that Mrs. Smith could suggest for Doris to do was to give her children up, but there was one problem of where to put the two younger girls. They were both too young to go into the home with their older sister and too old to be put into any other type of organization. The situation was desperate and the children and Doris had to be taken away to a place of safety as quickly as possible. Doris was assured that all of her children would be taken care of, but that she and the others would not be allowed to know where the two younger girls would be put for many years. Doris remembers signing paper after paper and crying the whole time. Finally she was finished and she and her Aunt Abbey walked out of the courthouse and Doris was driven back to the old farmhouse.

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She remembered when she walked inside the old farmhouse that Fred was waiting for her. He asked her where she had been and deciding that he was going to find out sooner or later, she told him the truth. She remembered him asking her if she had told this Mrs. Smith about her sleeping around. Doris said that she had not mentioned that since it was not true. Fred grabbed a piece of paper and pencil and forced Doris to sit down at the kitchen table and ordered her to write every man’s name down that she had slept with. Doris tried to think of what to do and finally an idea came to her and she started to write. She remembers when she finished that she folded the paper and handed it to Fred. Fred did not look at what Doris had written on the paper, and headed into town to the courthouse. Doris remembers sitting at the kitchen table with a sly smile on her face. She remembered being told later that Fred walked into the courthouse demanding to see Mrs. Smith. Mrs. Smith came out of her office to meet Fred and he handed the paper to her. Fred told Mrs. Smith that it was a list of all the men that Doris had slept with. Mrs. Smith opened up the paper and began laughing. Fred grabbed the paper from her hand and tore it up after reading what Doris had put on the list. It was a list of all the men television characters that she and the children watched every evening together. She remembered Fred arriving home, but he did not do or say anything to her or the children. He knew if he did that Mrs. Smith and other authorities now knew the situation at the old farmhouse, and Doris and her children finally had the help they needed.
Doris had some satisfaction knowing that she now knew that her older children were being cared for. They all wanted to be together and no matter how hard Doris tired it was just not meant to be to keep the two younger sisters with their older sister. Many years had passed by and Doris and her older children were finally starting to carve out lives for themselves.

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Many years had passed by and one day Garrick her second oldest son came up to his mother one day, and told his mother about the time that Fred had given him to another man for sexual favors to pay back a debt that Fred owed the man. Doris knew there were so many things that had happened that she was not able to keep track of it all. She and the older children finally remembered the day when they received word that they were finally going to see the two youngest girls. The two youngest girls had been living on a farm nearby attending a nearby church and school and had many friends in the area. They were now in the fourth and fifth grades and were both in music, band, piano, choirs, boys and girls 4-H clubs and other activities that kept them both very busy. Doris remembered waiting anxiously in the room at the courthouse with her six other children. She remembered that they all wondered what the two younger sisters would look like, and who they would sound like. Soon the lady from the courthouse Mrs. Smith opened up the door and Doris and her six children were allowed to come out into the room. She remembers as they all looked at each other, and with encouragement from Mrs. Smith they were all soon talking and looking at each other and cherishing what they saw and heard, because nobody knew if that was to be the last time they would ever see each other again. Doris remembered that she had felt that day would never come and that she was finally living a dream come true. The time together with her two youngest daughters was short, but it would last her a lifetime knowing that she and their brothers and sister were finally able to see them one more time.
The night before the meeting at the courthouse, Josephine and her sister Selena had been talking in the kitchen at their farmhouse, while their mother was stirring supper on the stove. A silence came during the conversation and it was at that time Josephine and Selena were told they were going to go to the courthouse to see their mother, sister and brothers. It was shocking news to

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both girls, and they wondered what all had happened, the only parents they knew were the ones who had raised them for so many years. After meeting their biological family at the courthouse the word adoption kept coming into several different conversations, but Doris was still uncertain as to what she should do. She wanted her two youngest daughters to be happy, but at the same time she wondered if they should come back to their biological family. Doris also wondered if her two daughters were happy living with the parents who had raised them for so many years. Finally the girl’s mother and her husband who had been raising the two girls contacted Doris and asked if she and her other children would like to come out to the farm for a visit and observe how things were between her two daughters and the parents who were still raising them. She remembered as they all arrived to the farm and climbed out of the cars. She went inside the farmhouse to talk with the parents while all eight of her children played outside in the large backyard. It was to be the only time that all eight brothers and sisters would ever be together at one time. There oldest brother Glen was killed years later and as the siblings grew up they moved to other states and could not always get to family reunions due to work or family issues.
Doris remembered how all of her children were sitting around a big table eating supper together that night, and how they sang and danced in the living room, while she watched her children talk and play together for the first time without any fear of abuse or neglect. The mother who was helping to raise her two daughters decided that it was time to talk about the possibility of adoption. The problem was that every time they would start talking Doris oldest son Glen would interrupt them and insist that his sisters come home with them. He felt that since all the brothers were together that the sisters should be together too. Doris understood what he was saying and how he felt, but at the same time, she noticed how happy her two daughters were living out on the farm with their parents. Doris felt that taking them away would not only upset her two

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daughters that they would not be able to receive the opportunities that they did now. Doris remembered how all of them had been allowed to spend the night and wake up to a delicious breakfast before heading back to the two orphanages and for Doris and Dennis to go back to their apartment. It had been decided against Glen’s choice that the adoption for the two girls would go through as quickly as possible.
Months passed by and Doris and the parents had done all of the necessary paperwork for the adoption of the two girls, but nothing was happening. The girl’s mother who was applying for adoption kept worrying and worrying day after day wondering what was happening, and why nothing was happening. Even though she had been told on numerous occasions to contact the judge for the case by her daughters and her husband, she felt she would be out of line to do so. Instead, she continued to worry so much that she became so sick making it necessary to be admitted to the hospital for tests. After the testing was completed, all of the results came back negative and the doctor wanted to know what she was so worried about. Finally she told the doctor about the adoption and that there had been no word from the judge for many months. Finding out who the judge was for the adoption case, the doctor knew the judge, and promised to contact the judge to get the adoption process moving along. She was released from the hospital and all four family members went back to the farm to wait. In a few days she received a letter stating when she and Dad were to be at the courthouse to finalize the adoption. The morning finally arrived when their parents drove into town to the courthouse to meet with Doris and the judge and to sign the adoption papers. The only problem that occurred was Glen who kept yelling at his mother and the judge not to sign the adoption papers. He still felt that his two younger sisters deserved to be with their older sister and brothers. The judge being wise ordered Glen to be quiet otherwise he would be in contempt of court. Finally the adoption papers were

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signed and the parents drove back out to the farm for their two adopted daughters to sign the adoption papers, and to pick out their new middle names. After the girl’s picked out their middle names, and signed the adoption papers with their new adoptive names, their parents hurried back to the courthouse with the papers for the judge to sign and for filing purposes. Driving back to the farm they walked inside and they all realized that the adoption was finally over and that nobody could ever take them away.

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I write children's stories. Have one book published, Working on another children's book. It is a series.

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