Deliver Us From Evil!

Paula Megginson By Paula Megginson, 30th May 2014 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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At one time or another, we all have thoughts that are not so pure. We battle within our hearts and heads to ignore these thoughts but, sometimes, they get the best of us. If we are not careful we can be overcome by our thoughts; at times and with out help we could fall prey.

Introduction

There was a woman; Delona was her name. She was a mother of 3 (2 boys and 1 girl). She was divorced from her husband of 8 years and the burden of the families bills now fell on her. Delona's ex-husband was missing in action as a father, so the burden of raising the children was also on her. Delores her daughter, was only 9 months old when he went missing and the boys were only 7 and 11 years old. Delona was a christian who had given her life to Christ at the age of nineteen and she was 28 now. Bill went missing 6 months prior leaving Delona pretty stressed and tired. There was no one she trusted in her life to watch her children so that she could do something simple like catch a nap. Her child care provider did not provide that type of service either; even if she did Delona could barely afford her fee as it was.

I Need Help!

Delores was teething so there had been many sleepless nights for Delona and the boys. James and Darryl were school aged and Delona worried about them getting their rest, but what more could she do, when Delores kept everyone awake at night.

One night, Delores was particularly annoyed. She was feverish from teething and she was cranky for the lack of sleep herself. Delona had taken off work early that day because she was so tired and she got home before the boys did. She rushed to prepare dinner and feed the children hoping to catch a little relaxation before bed; Delores, being ill, changed all of that. The boys were cranky and testy; tired of hearing Dolores cry so much, they acted out by picking on each other. More and more Delona found reasons to be angry with Bill for leaving her with the children alone. She continually prayed and ask God to help her no longer resent him for his freedom. Seemed like every time she thought she had forgiven him, new reasons came to remind her to resent him all over again. Delores seemed to pick up on her mother's irritated spirit and that made her cry all the more. Soon Delona was no longer fighting off the reasons to resent Bill but she was warring within her own mind with thoughts of abuse and sadistic beatings towards her daughter. All she wanted was to sleep in peace just one night. It frighten her that she not only had these thoughts, but that she was entertaining them.

I Feel Sadistic

I wanted to beat her
In a sadistic manner
I knew I could not
She cried seemingly for no reason at all
Her cry went through my soul down to my bones
Like nails on a chalkboard
I could not take much more
Can I throw her? I thought
Will she stop crying then?
Why won't she just go to sleep?
Peace is all I need.
Just a few lingering moments of peace.
I felt sadistic.
I wanted to beat her.
I knew she could not understand, so I prayed.
God don't let me do it,
Help me please!
He heard me.
Soon She fell asleep.
I was relieved,
She rested.
I rested.
Peace overcame me.
I knew then we would be alright together.
I would not face jail.
She would not face death.
The sadist in me would now have to die.
Looking toward the hopeful way of God,
Knowing God would intervene.

After prayer Delona knew God in a whole new light. This was not the first time she had such thoughts but it was the first time she had come so close to acting on them, but God showed up.

Call Jesus!

Need stability?
Call Jesus!

Need Security?
Call Jesus!

Need peace?
Call Jesus!

Whatever you need,
Call Jesus!

His number
Jesus-Christ
Ext. Prayer

Delona knew at that moment there was nothing so terrible that could not be reached by God!

Romans 8: 31,38-39 "What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

He Loves Me!

He loves me,
Even though I'm different.
He loves me,
Even though I often change.
He loves me,
Even though I don't always stand.
He loves me,
He just loves me!

Tags

Absent Father, Abusive, Crying Baby, Deliverance, Divorced, Evil, Hard Labor, Mother, Sadistic, School Age Boys

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author avatar Paula Megginson
Hello! My name is Paula (Brower) Megginson, I am a 55 year old mother of 3 (adults), and a writer and lover of poetry. I am a Christian and ordained minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I have been

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author avatar cnwriter..carolina
31st May 2014 (#)

interesting write indeed...

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author avatar Paula Megginson
31st May 2014 (#)

Thank you!

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author avatar Lady Aiyanna
31st May 2014 (#)

Sometimes an overworked mother needs a break and teething times are hard times for a baby who gets grizzly. To handle them all you need to understand that you have to educate your kids on what you are going through and they need to help their mother. I told my little one who was 4 nearly 5 when his father abandoned us. Sadly, the father was abusive with him and it took a lot of counselling to help both of us to come out of it as it was a violent relationship too.
Fact is that I never ever had evil thoughts against my child but on the contrary educated and showed there was a money shortage but never deprived the schooling ever. The fact remains that children are as disciplined as you want them to be and I have worked as a teacher and trainer of young kids and this is my technique.
I have seen what it is to be abused by the maids and neighbours in my personal life and apart from the husband in grown years. I am not religious but I learnt to respect their lives and forgive them for what they did and it left me in peace. Honestly, religion doesn't help but just forms a guideline for life with is not of belittling but that of understanding and hoping to make a suitable home that would earn praise for the kids.
I have never been selfish or promiscuous in my life and honestly when kids are teething and you are tired, its hard work. All you have to do is put the baby on the chest bring the two other kids together and cuddle all three and go to sleep. I used to do it and its no big deal. Problem is that people of today think that round and long satisfaction is the ultimate way of relaxation its not its lust and factually take the kids and go dancing, turn on the music and dance with them and tire the lot of them out and watch how much fun it can be... I love being a mum and would love to have more kids too but man has his mental disorder and a concubine too. Still married too...

Our Father
Who Art in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name.
Thine kingdom come,
Thine will be done.
On Earth,
As it is in heaven.
Give us this day,
Our Daily bread.
Forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those,
Who Trespass against us.
Deliver us from Evil.
For thine is the Kingdom,
The Power and the Glory,
Forever and Ever.

Amen

For as it was is and forever shall be, the law of the Universe.

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author avatar Lady Aiyanna
31st May 2014 (#)

The Lord's Prayer

(traditional)



Our Father, which art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy will be done in earth,
As it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive them that trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom,

The power, and the glory,

For ever and ever.

Amen.


Read more: http://www.lords-prayer-words.com/lord_traditional_king_james.html#ixzz33Gq5xR9g

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author avatar Paula Megginson
2nd Jun 2014 (#)

Lady A. I appreciate your comments here I have learned something I did not know myself as a mother of three (now grown) . This story simples describes someones journey and what they went through. We do only what we know we can't go beyond what we know as this mother did. In her case God and not religion did help her through what could have been a difficult and tragic time for her. I am glad that you found alternative ways to deal with this stressful time in your life. I am also glad that you shared your knowledge with us all I am sure anyone who reads it will learn something as I have. I pray that we never stop learning and maturing so that things that seem rough can be made simple and less stressful.

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