These are my thoughts as my husband and I await the phone call from the nursing home while my mother in law is breathing her last breath on this earth. We visited her yesterday but my husband can't take another day off except for her funeral or he would be fired from his job.
- Awaiting the call
- I, like a child, just could not stop crying
- Just then the drought was lifted here in Ohio!
- What she would say if she could talk to us today?
Awaiting the call
Today we are waiting a phone call from the nursing home where my lovely mother in law (Shirley) is breathing her last breath of life. She is in the end stages of Alzheimer’s disease and all the nursing home can do now is keep her comfortable. Her nurse is the most loving and kind young woman I have ever met. How fitting that on Shirley’s last days on this earth such a Godly angel of mercy would be there to care for her every need. This lovely nurse is a true testament to the loving and kind person my mother in law is.
I, like a child, just could not stop crying
I was hoping to go to church, but, the tears just would not stop flowing! I also felt that if my husband receives word that his mom went home to be with the Lord today he would need me to comfort him.
I asked my husband what he wanted for breakfast and made his favorite; homemade hash browns with ham. He opted out of the eggs this time. While cooking breakfast the tears just would not subside and the Lord kept prompting me during my crying spree to write a poem. After we visited Shirley yesterday I couldn’t help but think! What must she be thinking lying there on her death bed?? I had not slept for three days so when we got home yesterday I desperately needed a nap and then went to bed at 10:00PM. However, writing a poem was the very last thing on my mind.
Just then the drought was lifted here in Ohio!
Well, I guess the Lord had other plans for my sleep deprived mind. Not only that but just then it started to rain and I was ecstatic. The drought was finally lifted! Or at that moment did the heavens too join in with me during my crying spree? So back and forth from the kitchen to my computer I hurried to jot down lines for my poem. During which time I also took a picture and some videos of the rain. Nope I didn't burn hubbies hash browns either!!
I might add that so many times it is in the kitchen that the Lord chooses to inspire me to write poetry and songs. I should keep my computer in my kitchen I guess!! Not only that, it is when I have a little crying spree that the words seem to flow more vibrantly than ever. I suppose that could be because when I am crying I am truly in touch with my emotions and poetry is emotionally inspired. Below is the poem I wrote during my crying and cooking spree while the heavens blessed us with liquid gold.
What she would say if she could talk to us today?
I have walked with You daily on this journey we call life
through many tears heartache and strife.
Now my journey is about to come to an end.
Soon I will see the face of my precious Savior and very best friend!!
So please my loving friends and family, don’t cry for me.
For all my life His was the only face I desperately longed to see.
Some may say that life for me soon will be ending.
I say nothing could be further from the truth.
For me another journey is just beginning!
My years of loving him and the deep longing I have for Him now embodies the proof!
Here is the link to the article I wrote about my mother in law’s journey with Alzheimer’s